Bring Some Tree I got A Story to Tell

Something I started writing a few weeks ago and never published...

Again its been a long time coming, it seems in order to really give a good discertation I have to let some life out first. I have to live and learn a little bit. Well I have definitley been doing a lot of living and a lot of learning. Finding ways to move around my stutter steps and through my transitions. It's been hard at times accepting reality for what it is, knowing that in a some ways shapes and forms that I might be missing out on certain things - yet gaining in other areas. More specifically I'm never home anymore - not like that's a good thing. I'm always traveling, but its for work, and its not like im going to Paris - some nights I end up in Moline, Illinois. Left to contemplate and wonder why I have chosen such a path, looking around me and seeing friends make connections and network to further their missions. I guess there is some reason behind the rhyme in the fact that I can now fly to New York and have meetings and make connections with the ease of getting on any public transportation. However I must say that when life test you like this, it allows you to find meaning and purpose. While I was in training for flight school I somewhat found that purpose, or higher meaning. I realized a lot of things that I was investing in held no true weight nor currency. They were all meanningless products built around capitolistic ideals that I wanted to replicate because of my conditioning towards such items and the "hype" they had proved to be. I think through that I found a higher plane - figuratively and literally. With the new found vision being that none of this "hype" was really all that it was hyped up to be. And that these products and companies were all on the same "plane" as me. The only reason they were different was because they were doing, while I became a part of their process furthermore buying their lifestyle. Trying to become is probably the easiest way to distort yourself from reality. We are so conditioned as people to think and act certain ways, from the massive socio-political ways we are learned to the hype of streetwear and the generalization of what is cool. When being hip and cool was and has been always of the individual - it has no genereality. And anytime you try to become anything you fail. Zen-buddhism talks a lot about not doing to do - for example when Jay-Z writes a rhyme it might just flow from him, when he's at his best he's not trying its just doing what it do. He is just a transducer for that process. So my best advice is to let that energy flow through you - don't hold on to it, just let it go...peace